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----------------------- 要有一个新开始。------------------2008。9.15 --------我想要完美的人。要么我是也行。---2008.12.5------------------------------------------------------------------------ I think there's something more----------------------- Life's worth living for--------------------------- Who knows what could happen--------------------- Do what you do-------------------- Just keep on laughing ------------------------------- One thing's true----------------------- There's always a brand new day----------------------- I'm gonna live today- --------------------------------- like it's my last day----------------------------- Find yourself------------------------------- 'Cause I can't find you------------------------------ Be yourself------------------------------------ Who are you?----------------------------- So you go and make it happen---------------------------------- Do your best-------------------------- Just keep on laughing---------------------------- I'm telling you--------------------------------- There's always a brand new day----------------------------------------
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June 29

谢谢阿汤

谢谢阿汤,给我上了特别的一课。

从今以后,我要时刻记住,世界上没有白吃的午餐,也不会有一切美好的事情总是发生在我头上。

我要努力,要扎实的学习,要利用我的头脑,真正的为我的事业,缓解危机。

以前失败的经历,已经足够能证明,我也只是普通人。努力,就可以。不努力,就不行。

我能做到更好!但是,一定要脚踏实地的开始学习。

千里之行,始于脚下!
June 28

转眼又是一年

转眼又是6月底,2008年的这时候,整花前月下花天酒地的玩本科毕业呢。

我常常的回想起去年的这个时候。我认识了一个人,开始了一个习惯,结束了一个我,又开始了一个我。

去年这天听的歌,忘了,而今天此时听的音乐,让我想起那时候的那些人那些事。多美好的一年前啊。多美好的时光,多美好的那一刻。

过去的二十二年,遇到过很多人,有的擦肩而过,有的短暂停留,有的避之不及,有的挥之不去。有的人,注定就是短暂的相逢,也注定只能留下美好的回忆。

有时候我很感激生命中有短暂的相遇,然后不可阻挡的离别。命运没有给我们时间创造更多的伤害,没有给我们时间等到它变得丑陋,干扁,不值一提。回忆就是这么好,每时每刻都像脑子里载了一本书,随时可以拿出来阅读,赏心悦目。

去年这个时侯,我经历了好多心灵深处的第一次。美好的第一次,惊心动魄的第一次,苦涩的第一次,开始就停不下来了的第一次。以至于现在,回想起来,还是能深感幸福,面带微笑。

有的美好的事情,人生中注定要经历,也注定要尘封。很多事情,可以有千万个结果,千万个未来,千万个假设,可是我们偏偏走到了现在这一步。不由得我相信,发生过的一切,都是能发生的最好的一切。得到,失去,短暂的得到以后简单的失去,也是那么的美好。

天气又是这么热。心情却大不一样了。我们都在长大 ,还要经历好多不同的美好的事情。但是,我觉得,那就是永远忘不了的一个过去了。



June 12

Simpler, simpler!

 
It has been a crazy month.
 
Since the same day in last month, till now, I have been through all kinds of interesting things- mostly hectic. The final exams was like a nightmare and then came the dawn of the summer. I graduated from Kent and Kevin came to visit me. Was lucky to be able to make a little money from Golden Thai- although I am not a Thai girl. Still had to go to work in the government and that was not such a pleasure any more since there were other things taking over my schedule. My Chinese birthday came to me when I did not even know the day before. Had lots of fun with friends in Chicago. Ariel left on June 1 and we sent her to the airport where I cried a bit and felt really sad. Then, working, working, and watched a lot of movies.
 
Today, I am all alone again. My life has gone back to real simple- not "going to school" but still need to be at school. The bar exam, has become the only thing, one of the only 2 things, or maybe one of the only 3 things that matter to me right now. This is a pretty different feeling. It looks like it has become very simple, but still there is always some kind of sadness inside me.
 
I wonder when I can really live on my own, when I can be happy just looking at myself. I really look forward to when I can go home whenever I want, when I can go somewhere all by myself. I want to have a defined goal and then go straight for it. I want to settle down and start planning for something from which I can find my real respect to myself.
 
I have always been thinking, is following your intuition more important, or following your instruction? Is the happiness of your own more important, or the wellbeing of your network and society, or the world? Should we think about it and do things as an individual, or a part of the endless crowd of space and time? I know there could be a joint, and there could even be a overlap, but right now, I feel a bit uncomfortable looking for the joint of the two, while not really knowing if I have already stood on it or if I am already on the threshold.
 
I am just a complex, and who isn't?
 
It should be simpler, simpler!
 
I guess it can't unless I go brain dead:/
 
May 09

妈的 永远都在打仗

永远都在打仗!!!

干啥都跟打仗似的。总是忙的要死。一屁股的事!
什么考期末,交论文,搞卫生,洗衣服,买菜,UPASS也快失效了。要毕业,要接凯文,要找工作,要打工,要实习,要去纽约,要去明尼苏达,要去中美洲CRUISE!

学习啊学习,我脑子再灵身体不动也是空的!学习啊~~~~~ 我也急啊我也怕啊我也恐慌啊~

吃的也不少,也不是不少,就是睡觉前总要吃东西。致命!!!

啥都是问题。抽烟都抽的烦躁了。不想抽了,没意思。

还有什么更有意思的啊。做吃的都没时间。平时还自己做饭做吃的做点心-虽然做的点心大多都很难吃吧。

我去睡觉算了。没意思……银行卡也他妈的出问题。还交不了电话费。电话都他妈停机了。妈的。

没劲。要是我瘦点就好了就没这么郁闷了。是吧。

拉斯维加斯的有些事还萦绕在我脑子里,时不时的。切。

睡觉吧……同学们啊。等我考完试真的要好好玩一把。好好闲一闲。好好出去走走。为了明天的太阳,我们睡觉吧!!!
May 06

No

No.
You sure are rich, you sure are accomplished. You sure are nice and you sure are knowledgeable.
So what?
You don't know how to respect women, as well as you don't respect yourself.
You are not a good father.
You cheat on your wife.
You talk obnoxious words.
You do nasty stuff.

Yes,
You are rich. You are accomplished. You do work hard and you had stories.
So what?
You will never get what you want from me.
Because I see through you.
Or it's because you are not smart enough to hide those ugly things from me.

Show some respect to women.
Show some respect to whom gave birth to you.
Show some respect to whom you married for so many years with.
Show some respect to whom you gave birth to and raised as your children.
Show some respect to women before you want people's respect for you.

You don't deserve it as I see it.
You can work hard, you can make money. You can learn a lot of things and you can be attractive.
But you will never have my respect.
If you don't even respect yourself.

You will be really smart when you get what I meant.
Since now, you are already this old, and you still don't know.
You are a loser.
Don't you know?
Will you ever know?
 

      

       

 

 

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要是可以不毕业就好了
下午准备喊你动物园的 想起你有晚会
主持人加油~!笑死你们同学吧^.^
June 18
Keely liwrote:
I just want to tell you that,
I love you.
It never can end.
June 3
Xiaoai Yangwrote:
beibi what went wrong? how did u start a fight with ur mom?
im sure u and mom are cool now... try to be nice to them... when u leave home ur gonna miss ur family...
im still here alll alone i miss home so much!!!
come back to me soon i miss u too~! when do u get here?
Feb. 22
Xiaoai Yangwrote:
u got me a bday gift?! thanx baby u shouldnt have~
my plan is we all go to mix on 25th... will let u know the details soon!
 
i havent started my thesis yet! im goin back to school like a week earlier to get some of the stuff done!
have a festive new year with ur family beibi!! luv ya!
Feb. 6
Xiaoai Yangwrote:
beibi good 2 hear that u and him r cool now.
if u find them start talkin again remind him of what he said~
what u've done 4 him will pay u off!!
i think me and u have both learned alot in our relationships.
 
i don think me and him would get back together!!
he texted me just b/c he's alone and feelin loney, not that he wanted to restart it...
we'll probly still be chillin together, but not like what we had in the past...
 
do u miss douge?? when do u go back to bj?
Feb. 3